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the clock is ticking and it's pitch black. and then you open your eyes. the light from the muted TV is blinding and the closed captions are out of focus. you close your eyes and congratulate yourself for getting through the first day of high school. you set the sleep timer for 30 minutes and eventually (text-style:"blur")[[fall asleep]].

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hundreds? thousands? people line both sides of the street we are all waiting nothing talk to my friend do not face him directly “i don’t know why i’m doing this" take my phone out of my pocket, check the time roaring cheer from the surrounding crowd the parade is starting i see only [[the morning light]]

the alarm isn't that loud, but you wake up anyway. it's 7:32am and it feels like a tuesday. nobody else is home. you get out of bed and put on the fifth outfit you try on. then, you go through the rest of the morning motions in the [[bathroom]] and the [[kitchen]] before you head to the [[front door]].

i think i'm in mexico? flea market smells strange colors are off is that leonardo dicaprio? glasses and a tan suit he's coming this way holding a film camera a cassette tape, on the cover //2012: MR. BEAN// he hands it to me i look down it's gone i look up at [[the morning light]]

helping plan my own surprise party my friend fishing over a cliff i pretend i'm asleep. cool outfit there's a puppy poeple chanting "fight! fight!" i look outside and my tio picks up a glass table and slams it on the ground everybody leaves why were we here in the first place? [[the morning light]]

working on school project in forest area fixing extension cord a scientist from canada cuts it he says he is trying to save us my nose bleeds barbie jeep for transportation i wash my hands in [[the morning light]]

bathroom sink somebody lives underneath it my legs get pulled in on my way to a justin bieber concert never got there watvh the tv cameras i don't have shoes on, grocery store across the street wendy williams? walk into the store lose everybody walk towards [[the morning light]]

<u>''average teenage girl morning bathroom routine:''</u> 0. stare at yourself in the mirror for a good ten seconds 0. wish you were someone else but really: 0. you brush your teeth //(wishing your parents could afford braces)// 0. and then your hair //(don't forget to straighten every strand)// 0. wash your face //(pluck a few hairs from your brows and stache)// 0. moisturize and SPF //(pray you don't get skin cancer)// go to [[kitchen]] go to [[front door]]

you grab a ham and cheese hot pocket from the freezer and throw it in the microwave. you turn on the TV and watch half of a music video on MTV as you devour your gourmet breakfast. no time to waste. go to [[bathroom]] go to [[front door]]

your dad's truck is parked in the driveway. he came back because he forgot his work keys and offers you a ride to school. [[go with dad]] [[wait for the school bus]]

you climb into the passenger seat. while you wait, you change the radio station from tejano to top 40. the countless keys on his belt jingle in the distance. a familiar sound, and strangely comforting. he gets into the truck and yall [[drive away]].

you wave goodbye to your dad and walk to the street corner. the school bus rounds the corner then stops in front of you. its doors open and you get on. as you enter the aisle, you survey the seats and decide to [[sit with your friend who ignored your IMs]] [[sit by yourself in an empty front seat]]

there is a thick, awkward silence. and then, finally you: did you get my messages? them: oh, no i don't think so. [[believe them]] [[call them out]]

you immediately regret this decision but commit to it anyway. you take out your mp3 player and put on your "i hate everyone" playlist. a blur of grass, trees, construction, and farmland race past on the other side of the window. your eyes focus on the dirty water stains instead. you start to feel kind of car sick. you think maybe you'll feel better if you [[close your eyes]].

you bite your tongue and hate yourself for not saying anything. you ask yourself why this always happens. them: did you do the science homework? you: i finished it in class yesterday. them: can i see what you got for the last page? you: sure. you dig out your science homework packet and regretably hand it over. then you [[ride the rest of the trip in silence]] as you begin to wonder why you're friends.

you: i don't believe you. them: well i'm not lying. [[argue]] [[give up]]

the bus pulls up to the school. your friend doesn't wait for you. both: "see you later" head to [[the restroom]] head to [[homeroom]]

the lights are off and your teacher isn't there, but their belongings are. you head to your assigned seat and take out your journal to pass the time. you don't know what to write, or draw. the clock tells you that class won't start for another 23 minutes. you put your arms on your desk and then lay your head down in them. (text-style:"blur")[[suddenly]]

YOU WERE WRONG! you feel so sick and can't hold it in any longer. before you know it, a reimagined and very abstract ham and cheese hot pocket is all over the floor. your brother's best friend's younger brother stands up to yell "OH SHIT THAT'S NASTY!" you want to die. and you really think you might when he yells "IT'S COMING THIS WAY! PICK UP YOUR BAGS!" now the bus driver is laughing. you can't believe it. you can't look. you can't breathe. [[don't cry!!!]]

you burst through the door, head to the sink, splash your face with cold water, and let out a quick scream. it takes a second, but you then notice that one girl from english class stuffing her bra with paper towels. you make eye contact. you: what are you doing? her: nothing. you: okay. go to [[homeroom]]

<u>''thoughts currently racing:''</u> 0. my friends suck. 0. my freakin bus driver sucks. 0. i suck. 0. everything sucks!!! 0. why? 0. (text-size: 1.5)[why?] 0. (text-size:2)[WHY?] 0. (text-size:3)[[WHY? ]]

the last time you checked, the speed limit was 65 mph. you look at the odometer and notice your dad driving **45 mph**. [[complain]] [[contemplate]]

you: dad, can you drive faster? i'm gonna be late for school. dad: do you //want// to get in an accident? you: i'm pretty sure you can get a ticket for driving too slow. do you //want// to go to jail?? dad: i can drop you off right here and you can walk the rest of the way. [[apologize]] [[complain more]]

the more you think about it, the more you realize it doesn't actually bother you. you lean your head against the window and [[pretend to sleep]].

you: sorry. i'm just tired. dad: that's why you need to go to sleep earlier than midnight. [[agree with him]] [[complain more]]

you: i should have just taken the bus. your dad says nothing in response and you [[ride the rest of the way in silence]].

he turns the truck into the school drop-off and slows to a stop. dad: i know you don't like how slow i drive. i just want to make sure you get to school safe. you gather your things and get out of the truck. you: i know. he drives away and you head to [[homeroom]].

<u>''questions for later me:''</u> * will my dad ever drive //at least// the speed limit? * why do i even care about the speed limit?? * am i impatient? * can i even be considered a child of divorce if my parents never got married? * should i just keep pretending to be asleep and [[ride the rest of the way in silence]]?

the bus pulls up to school and you storm off to [[the restroom]] [[homeroom]]

you: if you don't want to talk to me just say that. them: i was busy. you: but you did this all summer. you can't //always// be busy when you're online. them: you're being so dramatic. [[apologize to them]] [[question]]

you let out a deep sigh. you: okay. them: are you made at me or something? you shake your head "no" and [[ride the rest of the trip in silence]]

you: sorry. them: it's whatever. did you do your science homework? you: i finished it in class yesterday. them: can i see what you got for the last page? you: sure. you dig out your science homework packet and regretably hand it over. then you [[ride the rest of the trip in silence]] as you begin to wonder why you feel so sad.

you: how? them: sometimes you can be like, really sensitive and it's kinda annoying. you: oh. you hear a voice from a few seats back yell "SHUTUP!" it's your older cousin. you forget you go to the same high school now. and ride the same bus. you get so distracted and hate that you have nothing else to say, to either of them. you [[ride the rest of the trip in silence]].

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new house three stray cats brother and cousins watch TV refill water bowls room needs to be rearranged i turn off the ceiling fan [[selena on the radio]]

"what is left to inspire?" people on house lawn halloween cops say turn it down somebody found a dead body across the street the backyard [[selena on the radio]]

stranger asks to borrow three pairs of shoes school bus drives around a dead dog in cul-de-sac in ocean trying to catch dolphins flying around hitting people with spit balls sombreros in tia's rental home foreign exchange student from germany [[selena on the radio]]

dad pacing house with shotgun mom pacing outside open the door let the cats in somebody is watching me they're wet, it must be raining tables floral pattern striped shirts middle school crush orange slices nobody wants [[selena on the radio]]

it's 8:04am on a saturday morning. you hear "como la flor" by selena playing from the kitchen boombox. the smells of breakfast and cleaning chemicals seep into your bedroom. [[stay in bed]] [[get up]]

you: you're probably right. dad: i know i'm right. [[ask to skip school]] [[complain more]]

you: can i just go with you to work today? dad: no, but i can drop you off at your grandma's. you: hmm, nevermind. dad: you need to spend more time with her. [[sass]] [[agree]]

you: all she ever does is ask me "porque no hablas español?" and i just wanna be like "why don't you speak english?"! dad: that's enough. you crossed a line. dad: she's already upset you won't have a quince. you: why does everybody care so much about whether or not i have a quince? dad: because they love you. you: if they love me then they won't care. [[complain more]]

you: yeah...i would if i knew what she was saying at least half of the time. dad: //(says something in spanish)// you: stop that's not funny! you both laugh. dad: you need to go to school. you: yeah yeah yeah, you drive so slow i'm starting to wonder if we'll ever get there! you both laugh again. the low volume of "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield fills the space as you comfortably [[ride the rest of the way in silence]].

you stare at the ceiling and wonder if your parents have planned something for you to do today that you already forgot. as you lay there, your cat jumps on the bed and breaks your concentration. your cat quickly dozes off on your chest, and then (text-style:"blur")[[you do too]].

you get up and drag yourself down the hallway and to the kitchen. your mom is cooking, cleaning, singing along to the radio, and dancing simultaneously. mom: there's beans, shredded cheese, and i made some fresh tortillas. use a paper plate, i don't wanna wash any more dishes today. you do as she says and make yourself two bean and cheese tacos with flour tortillas. you then sit at the table. mom: //one// of these days i'll wake up and my daughter will have breakfast ready for me! she laughs to herself and immediately switches back to mom-mode. mom: sit down right. [[chat with her]] [[finish your breakfast in your room]]

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someone mentions lemon juice they say to not be shy grandmas house and then her backyard late to a party grocery store trip with strangers it starts to snow i catch snowflakes in my hand a tree branch breaks [[i reach my hand out to catch it]]

you wake up in a cold sweat and glance at your clock – 11:10am. the house is silent. you sit up. [[see if anybody is home]] [[turn on your computer]]

you roam the empty halls and rooms. there are two less pairs of shoes by the door and the car keys are gone. you are home alone. you head to the kitchen, open the fridge, and peel back a tupperware lid to eat a spoonful of refried beans. you notice they're not cold yet. you throw the dirty spoon in the sink and head back to your room and [[turn on your computer]].

you wake up your laptop and [[open your IM]].

you notice she has on mascara and is wearing her "nice" pants. you: where are you going today? mom: yard sales! you: oh cool. mom: c'mon get ready i'm leaving in ten minutes! [[get ready and go with her]] [[come up with an excuse to stay home]]

you get up from the table. you: i think i'm gonna go eat in my room and watch TV. mom: you better not make a mess. you: i'll try not to. you grab a few extra paper towels and then [[head to your room]].

you: yeah okay, sure. mom: alright! i'm gonna finish cleaning the counter and then i'll wait for you in the car. you quickly finish your tacos and head towards your room. as you pass your mom, she says mom: if you're not in the car in five minutes i'm leaving. you: mom! mom: you know all the good stuff is gone by 9! you: that's not true, that's just a thing you say. [[throw on yesterday's pants and hoodie]]

you: um, i'm not feeling that great. mom: you need to stop going to sleep with your hair wet. i told you you'd get sick. you: no it's not that i think it's, uh, cramps. mom: ay mija, go lay down. go take a tylenol. i'll pick you up some more on my way home. you: okay thank you. you feel kinda bad for lying, but [[head to your room]] anyway.

you set your plate down on your dresser and decide you're not really that hungry anymore. what you do know is that you're bored and go to [[turn on your computer]].

it has definitely only been one minute, but your mom is already backing up the car in the driveway. you slam the door shut behind you. you: mom! wait! mom: hurry up! she brakes hard and you quickly get in the car, out of breath. you: what is wrong with you why are you always in such a hurry? mom: i told you five minutes. you: it hasn't even been five minutes! mom: well so what, c'mon hurry up close your door. [[close the door]] [[decide to stay home]]

you take a deep breath and brace yourself for the journey ahead. as yall drive, your mom sings along to every song that comes on the radio. KONO 101.1 FM "oldies, but goodies" the current song fades to an end and the commercials start. mom: so do you like any boys at school? you: mom... mom: i'm just asking! [[be sassy]] [[ignore her]]

you shake your head and get out of the car. you: nevermind mom, i don't wanna go anymore if you're going to be like this. mom: whatever, stay home then. close the door the AC is on. you: i need your keys to unlock the door. she puts the car in park. the car door dings and she takes the keys out of the ignition to hand them to you. you feel like you are wasting her time. you run to the house, unlock the door, and walk back to the car with keys in hand. you: here. mom: if anybody calls tell them i'm in the shower. you: okay. mom: i'll be back in a few hours. you: okay. you watch her drive away and [[go back inside]].

you close the front door behind you and lock it. the once lively living room/kitchen is now silent and still. you wonder why you feel so bad, so guilty. you drop a strawberry pop tart in the toaster and change back into your house clothes. the toaster spits the pop tart out just as you place a plate on the counter. you take a bite, grab the plate, and [[head to your room]].

you: shouldn't you focus on driving or something? mom: i'm just trying to have a conversation with my daughter. you: well can we talk about something else? mom: you tell me. [[ignore her]]

yall pull up to the first stop. an old lady sits in a lawn chair wearing a visor and fanny pack. today she is selling: * porcelain angel figurines * tarnished candle holders * women's size 12–14 clothing * womens' shoes, wide width * a few blankets that look handmade and outgrown * children's toys without batteries * books about god you wait in the car and watch your mom chat with the old lady as she quickly looks through the clothes and shoes but buys nothing. she waves bye and gets back in the driver's seat. mom: nada. [[go to the next yard sale]] [[ask to go home]]

the next stop has a woman coaching her two kids on how to sell their goods with a smile. you can tell this was all her idea. today this family is selling: * used PS2 games * kids clothing * a bunch of beanie babies * way too many fridge magnets * unused school supplies * all kinds of sports balls and things to hit them with you get out this time and head for the PS2 games. they each have a small, round sticker that says $10. you think to yourself //why waste so many stickers? why not make a sign that says "all games $10"//. oh well. after haggling with the woman, she let's you buy two games for $10 – final fantasy X and sly cooper. you [[head back to car and wait for your mom]].

you: mom i don't feel good. can you drop me off at home? mom: nuh uh, you wanted to come and i don't have that much gas money. well, at least you tried. [[go to the next yard sale]]

you look out the window and notice your mom and the woman talking. your mom sits in a chair next to her and they laugh. you don't know how long they'll talk for. oh, boy. you adjust the back of the seat down, (text-style:"blur")[[and then...]]

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looking at wikipedia what are you drinking? it's late and dark peggy hill name embossed on the floor she's a great driver complain about bus stops [[i never got to see]]

you hear a door slam and open your eyes. you're back home and your mom is walking towards the house front door. she looks back and waves at you to come inside. oh my gosh you have to pee so bad. you get out of the car and [[go to the bathroom]].

when you're done, you flush the toilet and wash your hands. you yawn as you look in the mirror and see the texture of the car seatbelt imprinted on your cheek. you head to your room and throw your new (old?) games on your TV stand for now. then, you [[turn on your computer]].

your laptop hums as the screen goes black and then comes back blue, the green sims diamond spins in the center. a loading bar at the bottom barely increases. this is going to take a while. [[grab a snack]] [[wait]]

{  (set: $responses to (a: "is now online." ) )  (set: $responses to it + (a:"hey") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[hi]] =| [[wut up]] |==|

you exit the window before reading what it says or who it was from. then you eject a disk from the CD-rom and in its place you insert [[the sims]] [[rollercoaster tycoon]]

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name) )  (set: $responses to it + (a: "what r u doin") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[just woke up]] =| [[nmu?]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "nmu?") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[same]] =| [[meh]] |==|

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{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "u wanna come over later?") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i cant]] =| [[let me ask]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "i need to tell u somthin") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[ok wut?]] =| [[i dont wanna know...]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "bianca had a bday party n told me not to invite u") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[idc]] =| [[did u go?]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "o ok :/") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[maybe tomorrow?]] =| [[yeahhh ://]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name) )  (set: $responses to it + (a: "kk") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i cant]] =| [[mom said no]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "ok well seems like u dont wanna chat") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i kinda dont]] =| [[what do u mean]] |==|

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{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "np") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[u gonna be online later?]] =| [[lol ya]] |==|

[[that was weird.]]

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "ya jsyk") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g]] =| [[ok that sux]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "ya") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g]] =| [[oh...]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "y r u bein weird") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g]] =| [[i'm not]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: ":P") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i think my dad is home g2g]] =| [[ne wayyy]] |==|

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{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "idk") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[okay...]] =| [[lol ur weird]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name) )  (set: $responses to it + (a: "ok then ttyl i guess") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[ttyl]] =| [[bye]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "nvm") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[ne wayyy]] =| [[w/e]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "nvm ttyl") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[okay?]] =| [[ok byyye]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "i know :P") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[lol :P]] =| [[okay stalker xD]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "brb xP") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g actually]] =| [[no :'(]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "brb") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g actually]] =| [[no :'(]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "¯\_(ツ)_/¯") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[fine well i g2g]] =| [[lol u suck]] |==|

{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "was i not supposed to?") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[no idc]] =| [[idek wut to say]] |==|

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{  (set: $responses to it + (a: (passage:)'s name))  (set: $responses to it + (a: "ya awkward lol") )  (display: "Messenger") } |= [[i g2g]] =| [[log off]] |==|

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you think turning your computer on was a mistake. you shut your laptop and lay down in bed. you stretch out your arms and legs, and then [[stare at the ceiling]].

you open the game box but the disk is missing. eh, whatever. you insert [[the sims]] instead.

you go into the kitchen to see what there is to eat. your mom comes out of her room and startles you. you: oh my god you scared me. mom: are you gonna stay in your room all day? you: i don't know. mom: well you better eat something. you grab a capri sun from the fridge and head back to your room. mom: that's not food. [[sit back at your desk]]

you spin back and forth in your desk chair a few times. impatient, you decide to clean your room a little bit. as you clean, your mom opens your door and startles you. mom: my daughter is cleaning her room? i must be dreaming! you: har har har real funny mom: here. she hands you what looks like a folded t-shirt. you [[unfold it]].

you unfold it to reveal an XXL-sized shirt with a large chihuahua printed on the front. you: what is this? mom: isn't it cute? i got it at one of the yard sales this morning. the lady tried to charge me five dollars! you: it's so big. mom: if you don't like it i'll wear it around the house. you think for a second. you: no i like it. thanks mom. mom: you're welcome mija. she kisses you on the cheek and walks away. you toss the shirt into your laundry hamper and [[sit back at your desk]].

you spend all day playing the sims and forget to eat dinner. after you save your game, you exit the window and see that none of your friends are online. well, one is, but you don't feel like talking to them right now. you shut your laptop and [[watch tv]] [[go to sleep]]

you grab the remote and (link-reveal:"press the FAV button until you find something worth watching")[<br><br>(link-reveal:"FOX – MADtv")[ //rerun// <br>(link-reveal:"NBC – SNL")[ //kinda boring//<br>(link-reveal:"cartoon network (adultswim) – the boondocks")[ //sure why not//<br><br>[[set the sleep timer for 30 minutes]] ] ] ] ]

you lie in bed and wonder if this is how every saturday night will be for the rest of your life. you didn't think you were this tired, but fight to keep your eyes open. (text-style:"blur")[[surrender]]

you lie in bed and try to follow along with the episode. you didn't think you were this tired, but fight to keep your eyes open. (text-style:"blur")[[surrender]]

(text-style:"sway")[ (text-color:transparent)[..........................................][[zzzzzz zzzzz]] [[zzzz zzzzzzzzzzzz]] (text-color:transparent)[...........................................................][[zzzzzzzz zzzz]] (text-color:transparent)[...........][[zzzzzz zzzzzzzzz]] ]

(link-reveal:"breathe in")[ (link-reveal:"then out")[<br>(link-reveal:"close your eyes")[ (link-reveal:"and count to ten")[<br><br> (text-style:"blur")[[surrender]] ] ] ] ]

herd of buddhist monks riding motorcycles not cheer mesmerized float into the air flock of birds do we follow? new instant message rollerblades laughing bed by a window [[my old room from high school]]

we were in a movie theater seats facing wall faces i dont recognize pillar blocking my view people booing someone grabs my arm and asks how am i supposed to react when i see a frog? bad breath hosting a party everyones here [[my old room from high school]]

wheelchair accessible spot for friend i think we were in minnesota people wouldnt stop staring needed to leave strange objects with price tags are they for sale? its a clothes rack i walk away and turn table with holes four legs [[my old room from high school]]

boyfriend kissing ex bff at the dance a ransom note in my locker its christmas time and test for first chair counterstrike LAN party decathlon superquiz what am i forgetting? [[my old room from high school]]

i don't know where i am but it feels familiar hallway feels never-ending that's not the right time what do i remember (link-reveal:"how to walk")[<br>(link-reveal:"W")[<br>(link-reveal:"A")[(link-reveal:"S")[(link-reveal:"D")[<br>(link-reveal:"//am i dreaming?//")[(goto-url: "thismustbeadream.html")] ] ] ] ] ]

end of world alien invasion cars on fire pass by a few we're trapped but escape man asks us where are we going panicking run into heidi klum she tells us the next project runway challenge seven eleven fantasia poster eating chips open bag [[i reach my hand out to catch it]]

purple mountains leaning reflection man with cane asks to sit next to me two prescriptions buy habanero get one free burger quick outdoor flea market guy asks to sell goldfish [[i reach my hand out to catch it]]

roller skating rink switch blades for skates sponsored by beyonce and acura found a note bright colors dad asks when i plan to get married elevators dont have doors and go sideways there is a concert going on [[i never got to see]]

giant place hotel men play basketball baskin ribbons asks for piggy back ride i walk ahead bomb threat at school i get my things go outside school bus waits [[i never got to see]]

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your IM status goes from a gray "offline" to a green "available". you hover your mouse over your status to change it to "invisible" when a new IM window pops up. [[read it]] [[ignore it]]